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I Wish

I wish you weren't the first thing I think of when I wake up.
I wish I didn't fall asleep with your name on my lips.

I wish it weren't only your calls that mattered.
I wish it weren't only your messages that I didn't leave unanswered.

I wish it wasn't your voice that overrode all the others in my head.
I wish it wasn't your face that haunts me.

I wish I could stop missing you even when I am in the company of others.
I wish I could stop wanting you even when I know you aren't mine to long for.

I wish I could think only of your faults and hate you.
I wish I could stop loving your idiosyncrasies.

I wish I didn't understand your conflict.
I wish I didn't understand your need to push me away.

I wish I could make you stop hurting me.
I wish I could make you stop hurting you.

I wish I knew how to share your burden.
I wish I knew how to make the pain stop.

I wish you would let me care.
I wish you would let me love.

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