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Pain

This pain tears me apart
This pain makes me alive

This pain of knowing you love me keeps me afloat
This pain of loving you silently sinks me

This pain of knowing you care for me makes me want to spin
This pain of not being able to care for you makes me want to die

This pain of knowing how much you give up for me keeps me sane
This pain of not being able to reciprocate drives me insane

This pain of knowing how much you ache for me grounds me
This pain of not being able to tell you how much I ache for you drives me wild

This pain of you caressing me centres me
This pain of not being able to touch you destroys me

This pain of you calling me lights me up
This pain of not being able to talk to you crushes me

This pain of you being invested in me makes me a better person
This pain of not being there for you ruins me

This pain that I give you makes me soulless
This pain that I can't share with you makes me lifeless

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